Writing this wellness journey blog is something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. Being overweight is both a physical and mental thing. There is a saying ‘Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder’. I am 5’9 1/2″ and was considered ‘statuesque’ as my mother used to say. I was not overweight but in my own eyes I was not good enough. My goal was to be a famous fashion model. After graduating from high school I had my son and enrolled in the local modeling school and starved off 30 pounds. My diet consisted of 1 piece of food a day for 6 weeks. This yo-yo type of starve, binge, starve dieting lasted for another 2 years until I married for the first time. Our marriage did not go well and ended worse. The answer to all my problems was eating. I gained 100 pounds over the next 7 1/2 years. I married at 20 and was divorced and a single mother at 28. I had lost my father and grandfather during this time. After the marriage ended I actually became a local large size fashion model and did fashion shows at the mall close to our home for 2 years. I did not make any money but it restored some of my confidence. Because of all the stress my body dropped 30 pounds without me even trying. I was too busy raising my son and working a full time job to think about losing weight. During this time someone new came into my son and I’s lives. He was younger and better for us. He was just what the doctor ordered. We fell in love and married 3 years later. The weight started to come back on because I ate out of happiness and had never learned portion control. All of the weight came back plus more over time. I have tried nutritionists, doctors, Weight Watchers and every fad diet out there. I am now 48 soon to be 49. My mother worked 2 jobs most of her life and has suffered tremendous health issues associated with type 2 diabetes. In 1999 I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. I also have high blood pressue, high cholosterol, high tryglicerides, and irregular liver readings. Most of the health issues are now under control with medication. All of this is due to obesity and a sedentary lifestyle and can be reversed with prayer, weight loss, and physical activity. My weight rose to its highest in 2012 at 264. I have lost 25 pounds of that. I started working with a fantastic new physical fitness trainer this year. We do what he calls a fat burning workout together once a week and follow an agreed upon healthy diet and drink lots of water. I do resistance training 2 times a week with my husband. During the nice weather months I walk with my son once a week and take walk breaks at work with friends. As I lose the weight I would like to enter what I call ‘athons such as walking and running and maybe, possibly ironmans. The goal weight is 140 to 150 pounds by February 22, 2015, my 50th birthday. I pledge to reach it and write about it!
My Wellness Journey
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