I have gained a lot of weight since the last post. I am back up to 236.4 as of this morning. I did get my permanent motorcycle license at the end of last year. That was one hard fought battle. It took 3 classes and 5 tests. But I did reach my goal. Prayer, persistence, and perseverance paid off. My Motorcyclists for Jesus – Riders For The Cross motorcycle group was invited to a poker run to administer our first biker blessing on April 29 of this year. What an incredible experience. Unfortunately, there is a lot of sadness going on right now in our lives. My mother was admitted to the hospital January 6, 2017 and is still there. She went in with fluid on the lungs and had to get a trachiostomy and was placed on permanent dialysis. They were supposed to be able to put a speaking valve on the trach so she could talk. They have found her airway keeps collapsing so she is not able to tolerate a speaking valve and she is on IV nutrition. We have been either at work or the hospital most of the time and it has been hard to exercise and eat at home. We just grab our food and go. Through this experience it has taught me how important it is to take care of our bodies. That is why I am writing this blog tonight and will continue to blog every week. Be good to your body and it will be good to you. My motorcycle has taught me never give up and fight for what you want. God is not dead!
I’ve been out riding the motorcycle getting some “wind therapy” as a friend of mine at work says. Gearing up to get my permanent motorcycle license this summer. The temporary license expires in April and will probably have to get them again. We went to a motorcycle show for my birthday and was asked to start a Columbus chapter for Motorcyclists for Jesus Ministries. My weight this morning was 219.8. Tom (husband) and I have been working out at home and I am still working out with my son at the trainers one day a week. Tom has been working diligently at home building an exercise room in the basement. Work has been difficult since one of my friends had to change shifts. We haven’t really talked much since it happened. Staying on the workout and diet schedule has been difficult but I feel more focused this week. My goal is to do weight training 4 days a week and cardio 4 days a week. I am still determined to compete in the bikini weight competitions.. My new goal to have this weight off is October 4 of this year. I have a sign in my office at work that says “My God is able…” (2 Corinthians 9:8). I will not quit till I get to where I want to be!
It is a new year and a lot has happened. My job duties have changed at work. Tom (husband) and I went to Europe for 2 weeks in September. We celebrated our 18th wedding anniversary. Still only have my temps for the motorcycle but I will not stop till I have my permanent license. This year I am going to write more and get back to playing the piano. Still have boxes from 3 years ago to unpack. This morning my weight was 220.4. Up significantly since my last post in July. Glad to say I am back on track and actually training to compete in those muscle bikini competitions I have blogged about before. Sounds silly with my weight actually up and soon to be 51, but I am following a plan my trainer put together. It gives me something to strive for, a goal or destination. Tom and I now work out 3 days a week together at LA Fitness. My son and I work out with my trainer 1 day a week. Because there are so many older ladies competing in the bikini category at shows they are expanding the categories to include 50, 60, and even older. This gives me hope. On Sunday the pastor said that Jesus resurrection meant that death has been swallowed up in victory and resurrection brings power and victory. In 2015 I started a process of resurrection and that process will be completed in 2016. Romans chapter 6 verse 6 says, “For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with,[a] that we should no longer be slaves to sin— 7 because anyone who has died has been set free from sin.” I have been set free from sin and live in power and victory.
This morning I weighed in at 199.8. Yippee! Finally broke that 200 mark. It has been exactly 21 years since I weighed that low. All glory goes to God. A lot going on since I last posted. My mom went to Las Vegas and Tom (husband) and I had the house to ourselves. Shall I say we ate and ate and ate. I gained back 10 pounds and had to lose it over again. Then my trainer went on vacation for 2 weeks. Still trying to get back on track. Well I finally did. During this time I discovered I really like the new lifestyle better and the old habits no longer work for me. Work was really hard during this time. There was some drama at work and it took a lot of prayer to work through it. I got really depressed and started to divert back to the old ways, but I stopped myself. By sabotaging myself when I get depressed the only person I hurt is me. It does not change the circumstance or improve the situation but only seeks to move me farther from my goals and make things worse. I rode my motorcycle farther and will continue on this path. Tom said I am making progress. I will keep moving forward and heading towards that finish line.
This morning I weighed in at 200.8. Another all time low. Amazing, thankful, and all glory goes to God. Once again could not do it without him. He’s everything and more. I did not publish last Sunday due to a lot of family drama. My emotions were out of control and I felt like quitting but instead did a lot of praying. Today Tom (husband) and I went for a motorcycle ride and I faced a fear and rode on Jackson Pike. This is a busy country road and cars go very fast. It was exhilarating and my spirit soared. This is how we are during the weight loss process. We see ourselves as the old fat person and are afraid to try new things because they are too terrifying and we might get rejected or worse, fail. I went shopping again today to buy some new tops. All my clothes hang on me and some even fall off me. Last time Tom and I went shopping he picked out some new dresses and I was afraid to wear them to work. They seemed too dressy and I thought everyone would make fun of me. Instead I got a lot of complements and appreciative stares. My heart soared and I actually enjoyed being at work for a change. Today I picked out a few more dresses and have decided to start making a wardrobe change. Tom said the dresses show off my nice legs. The word says, “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he…”(Proverbs 23:7 King James Version). We have to change our mindset about ourselves. We can do it, whatever it is. The only thing stopping us is us. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is whatever you want it to be. As previously mentioned I want to do ‘athons. Read about the 5k we did on Saturday in a separate article. Tom and I walk at night but I am supposed to run. My mind is telling me I cannot do this. Once again it is my own fears still seeing myself as this 264 pound fat woman who cannot do anything especially not run. My son, David, says I look as good and as full of life as I did when I was in my early ’20’s. He is so proud of me for trying new things such as motorcycle riding. My trainer thinks I could be a power lifter and my husband and son both think I could work up to a bodybuilder bikini model. My mind says this is absurd because I am 50 years old and still very overweight. My mind has to change with my body. I have to see myself as God sees me. A beautiful, vibrant woman full of possibilities. The world is my oyster!
This morning I weighted in at 201.4. Haven’t seen that number in a very, very long time. This week I stuck to the new food plan my trainer created for me and I started cooking. Wow that is a major change for me. I actually liked it. Friday, Tom (husband) and I took the day off work and I made him breakfast in the morning and we went for a 3 mile walk in the park. Yesterday, I helped Tom paint the gables on our house. He was impressed with the cooking and painting and so was I. 61 pounds ago I would not have done these things. Admittedly, this weekend it has been difficult to stick to the new food plan. Most of that is due to we needed to go to the grocery store and restock. Back to work tomorrow and back to the food plan. The success this week has a lot to do with Tom and I working out together and following the same food plan. He really is “The Wind Beneath My Wings”. I learned in my first marriage you have to be on the same page for things to work no matter what the situation is. The word says “do not be unevenly yoked”. This refers to all facets of life. If you are changing then those around you need to change with you or something is going to happen. Do not put old wine into new wine skins. I have also learned that resistance training lowers my blood sugar even more than just doing cardio. My trainer says this is due to weight training helps your insulin resistance. When I do resistance training the night before my blood sugar level is very low the next morning. Thursday, Friday, and Saturday we went motorcycle riding. Tom says I am getting better but I still need lots of work. Just like my body baby steps and lots and lots of practice until we reach goal.
“He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end” (Ecclesiastes 3:11 King James Version). This week my weight went up significantly to 210.2 this morning. As promised I am still blogging even though things did not go well. This is the down part of the journey. The contributing factors were we had company and Tom and I rented movies and ate junk food and we went to the movies yesterday to see San Andreas and pigged out. I only exercised Saturday and the rest of the week used the events that I just mentioned to eat like there was no tomorrow and sabotaged my progress. As the saying goes we are our own worst enemy. Another factor was I did not text my trainer with my daily progress which meant there was no accountability. I have been depressed this week because things are taking longer than I thought and I have a horrible habit of constantly comparing myself to others. I want to participate in marathons and bodybuilding competitions and to be a size 6 like the skinny models and ride my motorcycle all over like others. But I want all these things to occur right now. I start looking at others and get depressed and then the pity party starts and I just sabotaged a lot of work. The only person that gets hurt is me. The reality is I am learning to ride my motorcycle and I did do a 5k and have another one planned in June and then again in August. My weight is coming off and because I am 5’10” size 6 may not look so good. One of the highlights this week was seeing a magazine cover with the world’s first size 22 supermodel. Tom and I went to the Hocking Hills Friday and did some hiking. It was amazing and beautiful and the best part was I was able to climb the hills and not be totally out of breath. I am done with the pity party and ready to get back to work. I am exactly who I am supposed to be and where I am supposed to be.
This morning my weight was 202.4. All glory goes to God. I am powerless without him, he is my strength and my inspiration. My new pledge is to blog every week on Sunday or if not possible on Sunday a different day close to it. When I have gained weight I did not want to blog, but someone at work pointed out that is the reality of life and weight loss and there are going to be hills and valleys. It’s called being human. There are so many things that affect our life such as illness, medication, family, friends, coworkers, or circumstances. I do believe, “To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven” (Ecclesiastes 3:1 King James Version). My son, David, and I worked out on Friday and then went to dinner afterwards and he told me he had never seen me do anything for myself and it was like I was a whole new person, even in my personality. This stuck with me and I realized it was because there were so many other things that needed my attention at the time and now it is the season for this. My husband, Tom, and I did do the Capital City 5K walkathon and my time was 1 mile in 17 minutes. We have another 5k planned June 20 through my work, the City of Columbus. There are no accidents and people and things are in your life for a reason. They are there however long or short they are supposed to be there. I have recently started riding a motorcycle. This is another thing I have always wanted to do. My friend, Terri, and I went and got our temporary license together. She passed the test the first time and I passed the second time. We then took the State of Ohio Beginner’s course together for our permanent license and she passed and I didn’t. This would normally deter me from trying again to get my permanent license but now I am going to just keep at it until I get my permanent license. Thus this is a different season in life. I even got a doo rag. Yesterday I went clothes shopping and went from a size 22/24 to a size 16. It has been 20 years since I was that size. I just keep thinking why all these changes at 50 years old but then again why NOT!
I’m down to 206.2 as of this morning. Haven’t seen those numbers in at least 15 years, maybe longer. First of all, all Glory goes to God. “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me”, Phillipians 4:13 (KJV). My son, David, now goes to my trainer’s with me once a week and I do cardio and strength training at home. My husband, Tom, joins me for walks outside when it is warm. We are trying to train for a 5k on May 2. You have to be able to walk or run 1 mile in 15 minutes. We’re at 20 minutes. We will keep at it until the goal is met. As I said when I first stated the blog, I want to participate in ‘athons. This has been a lifelong goal of mine. Tom says he will go the distance with me. David is making positive changes in his eating and It inspires me to keep going. If I can help him to have a quality and long life then what more can I ask. Our children are our gift from God and our legacy. To be able to help them in their adulthood is a precious gift. There are things in life that we have no control over and other things we do. The serenity prayer says: “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.” I am trying to change something that I can.
This morning I was down again 226.8 pounds. Things are finally moving in the right direction. But I’m also going in the right direction. The thing that has changed is my mind set. My 50th birthday is coming up real quick on the 22nd of this month. I want things to be DIFFERENT. I want to be the success story for others to read. I want to be the inspiration. In order to do that the first thing that needs to change is me. Only I can change me, nobody else. No longer is it ok to settle. Onward and upward!!!!!